It has come to my attention that I may be displaying myself incorrectly to you as a teacher.I share cute quotes from my kids, inspiring things they may say and fun crafts I make for and with them.
This is NOT my life. My life is not one big, inspiring, shining moment of world class teaching.
I actually just laughed a little bit after writing that. I am not an incredible teacher. Yet. I am not anywhere close to who I aspire to be. But I’m okay with that. I am in my second year of teaching in a school that challenges me in every possible way. If I’m completely honest with you, last year was so trying I didn’t know if I would ever be the person I dreamed of being. I was so afraid of failing that I was ready to give up on myself and more importantly (and devastatingly), I was ready to give up on the kids who really needed me.
When I graduated from college, I was on top of the world. I felt so passionate about my career and was riding the wave of success from student teaching, I just knew I was going to be an awesome teacher. I was prideful. My image is what mattered to me. I am so thankful that my first year of teaching broke me out of that ridiculous shell. I am no longer dependent on how people view me, but on how God views me. I wasted so much energy last year on perception that I forgot my purpose in my classroom: to LOVE my students and do everything in my power to help them succeed.
This summer I spent countless hours reflecting on my mistakes from the previous year, determined that this one would be different. After my major paradigm shift I was able to focus on this verse: Colossians 3:23 “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.”
I share this with you, not to ring my own bell, but hopefully to do the exact opposite. I never want pride to get in the way of the important work I have been called to do. Ever. So if you ever think that I am anything more than I am (a very average person), credit it to God and say a prayer for me. I am ALWAYS in need of a reminder of who my savior is and what he does for me each day. My life as a teacher is a constant battle but it is incredibly worth it. I feel nothing short of blessed to be able to be a teacher to my 26 little angels. God has placed them in my life so I can be a blessing to them and they can be daily reminders of His grace, compassion and love.
Thank you so much to those who pray for me. I truly believe in the power of prayer in my life and the lives of my students.